Saturday, October 12, 2013

Why Can't We Be Friends?

Hey babes! So a lot has happened since the last time I've written. I worked up the nerve to tell my friend (let's call him Bob) that I was attracted to him but still wanted to be friends without making things weird. Like we both agreed on that and whatever. BUT HE'S BEING WEIRD. Like the day after I told him, we took the SATs together, and we were in different classrooms, but he was in the same class with the girl that I carpooled with. So my class was the first people to finish the SATs. We finished like a good 10 minutes before everyone else. And of course, his class was the last class to finish. As people we knew were walking out, we'd jokingly ask what time they started because my class was done so early. Well I asked him and my friend that and he was like "I don't know," in kind of a mean tone. So I was like whatever like I brushed it off. So then my two friends and I were going to Panera afterwards and one of my guy friends was like oh I wanna come. Well, he was like I'll ask Bob if he wants to come too. So when they came out he did and Bob looked at me and was like "I don't feel good." So I was like well that was kinda personal I guess. But again, I brushed it off. Then, like 3 days later, I had to text him a question about the boys' cross country team. This was the conversation:
"Hey, what time does your bus for your meet leave today?"
"2:30 I think"
"Okay, is it okay if me and kenzie went to take a picture of all the seniors in their uniforms for yearbook?"
"Don't ask me" and then (because I think he felt that was too mean) "Ask the captains"
"Alright" (and then because I thought it was too mean) "Thanks"

So I mean, that was a pretty cold conversation. And then, we're in the same math class, and I went to see our math teacher after school one day to talk about something. My friend went with me for moral support, so she saw this and then told me. I'm talking to my math teacher and he walks in, stops where the door handle is, looks at me, and rolls his eyes. Then he walks to the back of the room. So she goes over there and they start conversing. Then she's like, "Why are you here?" and he was like "To get extra help" and shes like "ohh" and he's like "but I never seem to get it" and shes like "why?" and he's like (looking at me with daggers) "Because someone's always here." I SHIT YOU NOT, THIS IS WHAT SHE TOLD ME.

No to mention that he doesn't talk to me anymore, doesn't make eye contact, and will barely acknowledge my existence, if at all.

So now I'm questioning what he said when he said he wanted to still be friends. This is his exact statement. "Of course I still want to be your friend." OH REALLY, YOU DO? Cause I think friends talk to each other, smile at one another, actually acknowledge each others existence. I'm trying to be your friend, but I don't really know what else I can do. If you don't want to be friends anymore, I would rather you just tell me. Sure it would hurt, but I would respect your decision eventually. It would really suck though because you were one of my best friends.

I don't understand why, out of the both of us, he's the one being weird. He should be flattered. If someone told me that they liked me, I would be flattered. Even if I didn't like them like that, I'd still be flattered. I just don't know what to do anymore.

If by some chance, you're reading this (and by "you're" I mean Bob) please let me know if you actually want to be friends, or what's going through your head so I'm not second guessing myself. Thanks.

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