Relationship Struggles

Okay, so this is something I do not understand. Like at all. My friends and I were having this conversation in my study yesterday.

Like, what is talking? I mean, I understand that its the stage you're in before you're dating someone, but how do you know if you're talking to someone? If you ask your significant other and you are talking, they might be offended that you didn't know that already. But if you ask them and you aren't talking, then it's awkward. Like, how do you know if you're talking to someone?! A few of my friends have all concluded that if:

1. talk to the person everyday
2. if you get excited when they text you (which I don't think because you could just like them and get excited)
3. what kind of emojis or faces you both use when texting (winking, kiss faces, etc.)
4. if you talk in person just as much as you talk through text

 
I mean, all of these could be true. I don't even know. Another thing we were talking about is kissing & dating.

1. If you kiss someone, are you dating? No. First of all, it could be a drunk/random hookup. A one-time thing. Second of all, you could be a casual dater. Like, just go on dates without dating, ya know?
2. If say you're boyfriend/girlfriend but don't actually kiss, does it count? No. I know this girl and she and her "boyfriend" have been dating for about a month and a half but they haven't kissed yet. I don't believe that this is a legit relationship. Sure, they can be talking exclusively, are they really dating if they don't kiss? 
3. If you kiss when you're talking, are you dating? YES. I believe that if you kiss your significant other while you guys are talking, you are dating. I understand if you just don't wanna put the label on it, but if you kiss each other and someone asks if you guys are dating, you cannot say "no, we're just talking." Like no. 
4. If you talk to someone for and extended amount of time, are you dating? Again, yes. If you talk to someone for over 5 months, you are dating. Again, it's understandable that you don't wanna put a label on it, but you're not just talking. Especially if you do other things besides kiss. 

Well, I think this is all my rant. So toodles!

Ideal Boyfriend

Hi there. So my friend was playing the question game with this kid and he asked her what her ideal boyfriend would be. Well, she asked me and I've been thinking. This is what my ideal boyfriend would be like.

He'd be someone taller than me, even if only by a little bit. Someone who can make me laugh under any circumstance, whether I was sad, angry, whatever. Someone who would listen to me and care about me. Someone who I'm not afraid to be myself around; someone I'm comfortable around and vice versa. Someone who will fight with me, but then apologize because it was probably over something stupid. Someone who will kiss me in the middle of a rant just to shut me up, but I wouldn't mind because it'd be him. Someone who will hug me and/or kiss me just because. Someone who will do stupid things with me. Someone who will take my hand if we're just waiting in line somewhere. Someone who will play with my fingers if we're laying down watching a movie. Someone who will play with my hair, because I love that. Someone who will let me fall asleep with my head on their shoulder. Someone who will put their arm around me and tell me that everything is going to be okay if I'm stressing out about something or having a panic attack. Someone who will wipe a tear from my cheek and give me a hug if I'm crying; no questions asked. Most importantly, I want my boyfriend to be my best friend.

My Boys

As I've said before, I manage boys' volleyball. I started managing boys' volleyball last year when I was a sophomore. Last year the varsity team made it to playoffs. The team made it to the semi-finals and then lost, so they were out of the running for the Western Mass title. This year, we played the semi-finals against East Longmeadow and won. We advanced to the quarter finals and played Westfield. Again, we won. Now, we are going on to the finals. We are going to play Agawam on Monday. We have previously played Agawam twice in the regular season. We lost both times, so Monday's game should be interesting.

These boys really deserve to win the Western Mass title. I have spent the last month and a half to two months with them almost everyday. I've seen them work their butts off in practices and in games to make it to where they are now. I've heard them say from the beginning that they want to win this title. Especially the seniors because it's their last year.

In the quarter finals against Westfield, one of they boys got hurt and couldn't play. It especially sucked because he's a senior. Before the game started, I had to read a bunch of things and the lineups for both teams. This boy came over to me and told me that he didn't want me to read his name. At first I was like okay, but then I started thinking about it. He's part of the team if he plays or not. So with like a minute left until I had to start reading all of that stuff, I went back over to him to double check that he absolutely did not want me to read his name. He said he was absolutely sure. One of the other managers that was sitting in front of him turned around and said, "What if this is the last game?" and he responded, "It's not going to be" with complete confidence that they were going to win. When I was watching them play the third game, it dawned on me. He was so confident that it wasn't going to be the last game because they were going to win it for him. They were going to win it so he could play in the game on Monday. That literally gave me goosebumps. And they ended up winning. He was right.

Whether we win on Monday or not, they had a fantastic season. I know they will not give up no matter what. I will be proud of them no matter what the outcome is.