That Girl

I have a problem. A boy problem. So I like this boy, but he has a girlfriend. Boys with girlfriends are off limits. It's like girl code or just the humane thing to do. Like I was that girl one time and that was a huge mistake. I don't want to go back there. The guy just used me. We didn't hook up or anything, but he cheated on his girlfriend. I don't know about you guys, but I like to relate my life to songs. And strangely, so many songs are like, my life.

1) We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together by Taylor Swift

Oh my goodness. This is like 10000% my life. My absolute favorite part of the song is when she sings, "So he calls me up, and he's like 'I still love you' and I'm like, just like, ugh, we are never getting back together, like, ever." You don't know how many times my ex pulls this shit on me. Like, honestly. And I fell for it every time. Every. Single. Time. Until now. Now, I'm just like mhmmmm suuuuuuure. 

2) Inevitable by Jessie James

I just listened to this today for the first time is such a long time, and it really reminds me of my situation right now. One line, specifically, makes me think. "Why don't you tell her about me? Tell her the truth." I'm pretty sure this guy's girlfriend doesn't know that me and her boyfriend talk. If she does know about me, I'm sure the extent of her knowledge is that we work together. If he is so tempted by me, I don't get why he doesn't just break up with her. Okay, that was kinda selfish, but still. Like if you really like someone you shouldn't like someone else, right? Ugh. 

But then I was thinking. Just because your tempted by someone, doesn't necessarily mean that you like that someone. It could just mean that you want to hook up with them. I'm not that kind of girl. I'm not a hump&dump kind of girl. I want a relationship. I can't not get attached. I'm a very emotional person. And maybe I'm overthinking or something. But maybe not. I do know something though. I absolutely do NOT want to be THAT girl.

Why? Because that girl gets a bad rap. That girl gets shit on for, like, ever. That girl always feel like crap afterwards, like she's a bad person. That girl never wins.